Cherry Blossoms Again
Spring rolled around quicker than we anticipated this year. Or maybe time just seems to be moving faster now that we are parents. A year has gone by and visiting the cherry blossoms reminded me of just how much has changed in our lives and just how much change is a part of this world.
A year has passed by already and sometimes we feel none the wiser. As a mom, days seems to go by so fast and there seems to be so much changing that change seems like a norm. Occasionally our parenting rules seem haphazard, almost made up as we go along. My little baby is growing up so fast that it terrifies me. There are tiny changes but added up they are not inconsequential.
Last year she would wake up at 5:30 am and scream to be picked up and held and babied. This year she wakes up at 5:30 am, makes her way into my bed and snuggles close to me as we catch two more hours of sleep together.
Changes often happen gradually and so subtly that you almost forget that things were the norm once. She goes to the bathroom by herself and so I forget that diapers ruled our lives for the last two years. At bedtime she kisses us goodnight and sleeps in her own crib and so I forget the countless nights of sleeplessness and the endless days of utter and total exhaustion.
And then there are the times of noisy defiance and assertion and attitudes. They almost make me want to go back to the time when my feeling about this parenting thing were less complicated and my thoughts about the right way and the wrong way were more lucid. When tears meant either of the two things-feeding or changing. Time changes and parenting decisions get more evolved and clarity is often not easy to come by.
Spring rolled around quicker than we anticipated this year. And it brought its usual warmth and sunshine and reminded us that change is the part of our lives. And as our roles as parents change- from caregivers to teachers, from overseers to friends we celebrate change and look forward to the exhilaration it will infuse in our lives.